Things didn't turn out to be so bad after all. I hope. From my viewpoint at least. We got to sit down for breakfast and we talked for an hour. give or take 15 minutes. I really enjoyed it. She said that we should just be friends. Funny thing is that I was going to say that. Maybe it would have been better if i was the one to say that rather than her. Who knows? either way, it's an opening for me at least.
given this 3 months ago, I probably would've just given up. I've definitely grown. I've grown stronger. It's a great opportunity for me to build confidence in talking to women i like. After, all, this is really the first time i've even had a conversation that lasted more than 20 seconds. And I have a failsafe plan just in case. just in case. Let us hope it doesn't get that far.
On another note, I found this really sick nasty site that allows you to talk to strangers. here it is
http://omegle.com/ It's hilarious, I stayed up till 2 in the morning last night talking to random strangers. lol, last night in the morning. That contradicts itself. Wow, that reminds me, here's how one of my conversations went:
Connecting to server...
Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on.
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: testing...
Stranger: testing successful
Stranger: mission complete
You: nice! it works!
Stranger: great job kid
You: thanks
Stranger: go team
Stranger: we did it
You: i figured after about 100 times i'm bound to get it to work
Stranger: what typing
You: yes
You: typing
Stranger: ok, you want me to wonder what you successfully completed, but jokes on you because i don't give a shit
You: lmao
Stranger: but seriously what
You: lol it was typing
You: i was making a joke by saying it took me 100 tries xP
Stranger: well... good job?
You: the last 100 ppl i talked too were very anti social
Stranger: 100 people wow
Stranger: you most be very social
You: give or take about 97
Stranger: o ok
Stranger: fuzzy math
Stranger: i get it
You: lol
Stranger: so now that you've successfully managed to complete your typing, what are you going to do next
Stranger: disney world
Stranger: world travels
You: umm...havent planned that far...
Stranger: one step at a time
Stranger: baby steps
You: dang...well there goes my life >.<
Stranger: no... you've got to live for today
Stranger: first typing
Stranger: then who knows what
Stranger: maybe making a sandwich
You: then frat parties, right?
Stranger: maybe watching a movie
Stranger: yea
Stranger: who knows where it will take you
Stranger: typing is the foundation of a great life
You: maybe i'll get lucky in a bathroom XD
Stranger: you see... thinking big already
Stranger: a dreamer, this one
You: wow, already?
You: nice!
You: but it's tomrrow night >.>
Stranger: the frat party
You: dang, must keep typing untill then
Stranger: i guess so
Stranger: practice makes perfect
You: 24 hours more to go
Stranger: so what fraternity is it that you are going to make somebody a lucky person in a private bathroom
You: i dunno
Stranger: doesn't matter what you type
You: i go to random frat parties
Stranger: cause i don't know either
You: i think this one's tau kappa epsilon?
You: i dunno they all have greek letters for names
Stranger: what school are the connected with or whatever
Stranger: they connected with i mean
You: no idea
You: i think it's math?
You: i just go to thier parties XD
Stranger: haha fair enough
Stranger: ok let's get down to brass tax here then...
Stranger: where are you from
You: NY
You: you?
Stranger: california
You: nice! oppposite sides of this great nation
Stranger: exactly
You: so how life on the eat coast?
You: heard its waay better than the west side
Stranger: east coast/west coast beef
Stranger: i'm on the west coast
Stranger: you're on the east coast
You: fuck the world map
Stranger: cali's ok
Stranger: exactly
Stranger: i make my own directions
You: the east is west of us and the west is east of us
Stranger: that's deep
You: the eastern guys
You: china and asian countrys are known as the east
You: and theyre west of us >.>
Stranger: everybody is west of somebody
You: lol but theyre the eat, shouldnt they always be on the east?
Stranger: they are in my head
You: lol
Stranger: so tupac or biggie
You: tu pac
Stranger: what?
Stranger: biggie
Stranger: see maybe you are west and i am east
Stranger: the fighting continues
You: lol
You: this world is wierd
Stranger: indeed
Stranger: but why do you think it's weird
You: the west is east and the east is west
You: but the opposite applies too
Stranger: o i thought you meant in a more philisophical sense
Stranger: but yes it is
You: lol that too
You: by suggesting that east is west and that east is east,
You: and that west is east and west is west,
You: makes these statements contradict themselves
Stranger: "...where do we fit into the big picture?"
You: we fit in america
Stranger: "...are we insignificant?"
Stranger: america is the starting point of the compass
You: we are americans, we are never insignificant
Stranger: haha that's true
You: we're justs that good =)
Stranger: word
Stranger: i do a lot of studies of the middle east and it has made me so glad to live in america
Stranger: they are really fucked up over there
You: lol
You: tru dat!
Stranger: so do you go to school there in ny
You: yup
You: in college
Stranger: right on
Stranger: what's your major
You: psychology
You: you?
Stranger: nice
Stranger: that's my favorite subject
Stranger: i'm in the air force
Stranger: hence the middle eastern studies
You: ah, i see
You: psych is really fun and interesting
Stranger: what year are you in
You: i'm a freshman this year
You: you fly copters?
Stranger: no... i wish it was that exciting
Stranger: i'm a linguist
You: oh ouch, not very exciting huh?
Stranger: eh not so much
Stranger: i guess it's better than getting shot at though
You: yeah, definitly
You: i once had a math teacher who was an air force copter polit
You: pilot*
Stranger: o yea?
Stranger: is he retired
Stranger: or she
You: from the air force, yup
You: he
You: now he teaches math in a high school
Stranger: that's cool
You: used to tell us storys of flying a helicopter
You: and telling us how freaky it could get and stuff
Stranger: i imagine
You: like if you get caught in high velocity winds, you're done for
Stranger: yea, that's takes a lot of guts
Stranger: i'm guessing he was an officer?
You: probably
You: he never really told us
You: he would just tell us random stories of his days on the air force and math.
You: i much perfered the former XD
Stranger: haha yea math sucks
Stranger: but psychology...
Stranger: i love getting into peoples' heads
You: I have to take a stats class though if i plan on keeping my major as a psych
You: lol yea its fun
Stranger: bleh
Stranger: stats
You: esp. if you know some philosophy like socrates, you can mess with people so bad
Stranger: mess with me
Stranger: freak me out
You: lol i'll try
You: how are you today?
Stranger: 23
You: you're 23?
You: i asked how you are doing lol
Stranger: what the hell i thought you said how old are you
You: XD
Stranger: you're already messing with me
You: lol these things happen
Stranger: i
Stranger: am good
You: lmao
You: okay
You: by saying good, you know what the meaning of good is, right?
Stranger: yes
You: tell me, what is good exactly?
Stranger: hmm
Stranger: it
Stranger: is...
Stranger: not bad
Stranger: and
Stranger: in regards to feelings, it means that you are healthy
Stranger: and
Stranger: content
Stranger: and, despite some misfortunes, happy with your current state
Stranger: it means comfortable
Stranger: and
Stranger: that is good
You: i see,
You: and wouldn'y you say that being comfortable would be like if you were comfortable with a friends?
You: friend*
Stranger: you could say that
Stranger: being good with a friend
You: So by saying that, if you were comfortable with a friend that would make him good right?
Stranger: not necessarily, but your relationship is good
Stranger: maybe he/she is one of those misfortunes
You: so he wouldn't really be good
Stranger: maybe he is
Stranger: i don't know
You: but if he robs banks and terrorizes people, then he's a bad person
Stranger: or misguided
You: and if you're comfortable with him, then he's good
Stranger: your relationship is good
You: ah, i see
Stranger: but then if you have a good relationship with a bad or misguided person...
Stranger: i guess that makes you bad
You: so then, you wouldn't be good
Stranger: you're blowin my mind right now
You: lol this is so hard XD
You: you almost got me
You: I got stuck until you said comfortable lol
Stranger: i knew i shouldn't have written that haha
Stranger: i tried to dictionary.com it, but my internet connection is too slow
You: but that is a really refined definition
You: oh lol XD
You: it was rather a good one though
Stranger: thanks
Stranger: i've taken a few psych classes myself
You: yeah, they're fun
You: you learned about freud yet?
Stranger: i did, but to be honest... my knowledge of freud has all but left my brain
You: lol thats good
You: he is one weirdo
Stranger: i know all of his theories were sex based
You: lol that's why he's a weirdo XD
Stranger: haha
Stranger: or a genuis
Stranger: probably a weirdo though
You: lol that tooo
You: lol
You: he's a cocaine addict who talks about things like kid sex, you tell me >.<
Stranger: he was addicted to coke... i did not know that
You: yup, mad on it too
You: lol
Stranger: went from the oral stage straight to the nasal stage
You: lmao
You: skipped a few stages, but it's all cool, cause he wants to make out with his mother
Stranger: haha yea... what was that... oedipus... or something
You: lol yup
You: the oedipus complex
Stranger: who doesn't want to make out with their mom...
Stranger: i mean, really
You: there was an electra complex too, but that was his daughter
Stranger: what is that one
You: its when the daughter wants to make out with the father
Stranger: o ok... the reverse
Stranger: and kill the mother?
You: this came from Freud's daughter
You: yup
You: hmm...something weird must be going on between freud and his daughter...need i say it?
Stranger: haha... see but when you're a "thinker" like that you can make reasons to explain the things you do
Stranger: "o no, it's natural to want to be with your mother and your daughter"
You: i know, he made it all unconsious
You: we all are unconsiously like that according to freud
You: that's why he is a genius, no one can disprove him
Stranger: that's true
Stranger: psychology is a fuzzy area though
Stranger: there is not a lot you can really prove
You: yeah,
You: and the things you can prove, you can't because it goes against ethics
Stranger: such as
You: seeing whether breast feeding a baby makes them smarter
Stranger: i don't think that's unethical
You: to do this, we'd have to have the parents risk the chance of making thier babies dumber
You: no one would agree to it
Stranger: you could just find your sample group made up of mothers who are going to breast feed their babies anyway and mothers that are not going to breast feed their babies anyway
Stranger: nobody would be changing anything
Stranger: the testers would simply monitor the children throughout their life, 25-30 years
You: but think about it, the mother who dont breast feed are usually busy, thats why they can breast feed
Stranger: possibly
You: and research shows that by the touch that is recieved from breastfeeding releases a chemical that alters a babie's mind
Stranger: but if you could find such a sample group, it would be possible to test
You: so to make sure that only the breast milk is only being tested,
Stranger: o, i see where you're going
Stranger: you would have to control the lives of this family for the duration of the study
You: basically
Stranger: that's why you're the major haha
You: XD
Stranger: i wouldn't have thought of that
You: no, i just have really good professors
You: they make sure i consider everything lol
You: EVERYTHING, it gets annoying, but i try to find ways around it XD
Stranger: haha
Stranger: yea that is probably the best advice ever
Stranger: "consider everything"
Stranger: and not just for psychology
Stranger: for every aspect of life
You: yeah, i never saw it outside psych before
You: now that i think about it
Stranger: for instance, does god exist?
Stranger: maybe he does
You: you're right
Stranger: but maybe he doesn't
You: to consider everything, like every single aspect
Stranger: "consider everything" and then draw a conclusion
You: it's a good way to make informed decisions
Stranger: exactly
You: I should start doing that
Stranger: one thing that is hard for me to take, is when people are raised to believe something (and not just religiously) and don't change because that's how they were raised
Stranger: despite logic
You: yes that and ignorant people who doesn't want to learn
Stranger: exactly
You: they say ignorance is bliss, but are ignorant people really happy?
Stranger: they sure seem happy during their bull rides and eating contests and praise and worship sessions
Stranger: but maybe they just want to make out with their mothers
You: lmao
You: maybe that too
You: Socrates once said "the unexamined life is not worth living."
Stranger: because and the end of it, what difference does it make
Stranger: or did it make
Stranger: you lived and died
Stranger: and the world is the same for it
You: I don't think it's in the end, but how you live it
You: i mean in the end, nothing one does might sem significant to another person
You: but, i think the things i do are significant to me, i think that's what really matters
Stranger: but eternal life is that significance
Stranger: meaning the impact that you make on your friends and family and country and world will be the way that you live forever
You: i dunno, if you're the only one that has eternal life,
Stranger: it's a symbolic eternal life
You: then you'd have the press all over you the rest of your life, and thats a long time
Stranger: i mean you die
Stranger: but your name lives on
Stranger: and your deeds live on
You: ah, i see
You: like socrates, right?
Stranger: i don't know
Stranger: haha
You: lol he existed in the 400bc
Stranger: and we're still talking about him
You: and even today we're still talking about him and his deeds
Stranger: eternal life
Stranger: exactly
You: but i think as long as it's significant to you, thats all that should matter
Stranger: as long as nobody is hurt in the process
You: haha yes, that too
Stranger: ok... meaning of life
Stranger: 30 seconds
Stranger: GO!!
You: lol
You: you mean we finally get to it?
You: like in monty pythons?
Stranger: haha
You: it takes us about 90% of the movie before we even begin to consider it
You: I think the meaning of life is nothing more than just living life to the fullest
Stranger: good answer
You: and experiencing what the world has to offer
Stranger: seeking peace
Stranger: that's what i say
Stranger: and experiencing the world
You: amen to that
You: living and not giving up, through the happy times, through the harsh times.
You: through peace, and through war
Stranger: word
You: seeing with your own eyes, not just seeing, but percieving the world with your own senses
Stranger: o man, this is deep
You: this is what happens when you take alot of psych and philosophy classes XD
Stranger: this is a good time to roll a joint
Stranger: haha
You: lol
You: at 3 in the morning?
Stranger: 4:20 in the morning...
Stranger: wait an hour 20
You: is it?
Stranger: no
You: oh lol
Stranger: it's 9 here
You: cause it's midnight here
You: and i think califonia's 3 hours away
You: i cant remember if it's plus or minus
Stranger: three hours to the east
Stranger: just remember the red hot chili peppers,
Stranger: "the sun may rise in the east at least it settles in a final location"
You: lol i do now
You: so it's nine over there, right?
Stranger: yep
Stranger: 9 on a friday night and i'm in my dorm talking online
Stranger: *sigh
Stranger: but this conversation is actually fun though
Stranger: so i guess it's ok
You: lol its midnight here and im in my dorm on a friday night/sat morning talking online XD
You: haha, yeah, this actually really interesting
Stranger: so i never got your name
You: It's jackie
You: yours?
Stranger: i'm kevin
You: nice you got email?
You: btw, i'm a guy, so i know it's kinda wierd, but i have to live with it XD
Stranger: haha, no that's not weird
Stranger: i've heard weirder guy names
You: *cough* eugene *cough*
Stranger: haha yea
Stranger: my brother in laws name is cassidy
You: lol
Stranger: yea tell me about it
You: well, atleast theres this one famous world figure that a guy who shares the same name as me
You: that's*
Stranger: robinson?
Stranger: gleason?
Stranger: the ripper?
You: hmm...make that 3
You: 4
Stranger: the last is a stretch
Stranger: who else though
You: the chan man
Stranger: o hahahaha
Stranger: of course
Stranger: how could i forget the chan man
You: unless he somehow is no longer a world figure XD
Stranger: haha of course he's a world figure
Stranger: he's jackie chan
You: they even have a cartoon show starring him xP
Stranger: what?!!
Stranger: i had no idea
You: yea
You: its true
You: it's called jackie chan adventures
Stranger: haha yes
Stranger: i'm sure jackie chan has many adventures
You: he does, probably does too
You: wait...does thatsentence makes sense?
Stranger: no
Stranger: haha
You: lol
You: a paradoxal sentence
Stranger: or a grammatically incorrect sentence
Stranger: you be the judge
You: *flips coin*
You: uh oh...it landed on its side
Stranger: paradoxal it is then
You: lol
You: whoa, that was pretty off topic XD
Stranger: i think we're in a grey "off-topic" area right now
You: lol
You: this entire convo is off topic
Stranger: or is it all on topic
You: by being off topic lol
You: wait...it's on topic by being off topic
Stranger: that's paradoxal
You: lol thats what i was thinking
You: that means that this convo doesnt make any sense!
Stranger: i concur
Stranger: or whatever
You: lmao
You: but surely i understood you when you said you concur
You: so it makes sense, but doesnt at the same time!
Stranger: my mind is in the process of being blown
You: mine is too
You: Heck, we might be able to make the universe implode by this amount of paradoxes
Stranger: shh...
Stranger: don't say anything else
Stranger: the earth is on it's cilter
Stranger: kilter?
You: lol
Stranger: killter?
Stranger: i don't know if that's even a word
You: lol
Stranger: uhhhh... i miss weed
You: kilter, yup its a word
Stranger: kilter
Stranger: it's off kilter
You: un normal?
You: of course! thats cause the LHC exists!
Stranger: ok... so it is kilter?
You: yup
Stranger: THC?
You: i dunno
Stranger: haha
You: large hadron collider
You: there we go XD
Stranger: tetrahydrochronicgoodtimeplant
Stranger: or something like that
You: time plant?
You: is that a plant that can travel time?
Stranger: goodtimeplant
You: ah, plant as in to place, right?
Stranger: no as in a plant that grows from the ground that you smoke and have a good time with
You: oh lol
Stranger: like cartoons and cocoa puffs
You: cartoons grow from the ground?
Stranger: no that would be shrooms
You: llol bad misinterpretations XD
You: lo lthat too
You: did you know if you consume enough shrooms over a long period of time, you can tripp out by cracking your neck?
Stranger: well i hate to cut the convo short, but i just got an important call and i have to go now
You: na its cool
You: you're doing it for the better of this nation right?
Stranger: haha yea
Stranger: i hope so
You: It's why i respect you guys
Stranger: or what does it all mean
You: lol i'd go philosophical right here, but you've gotta go
Stranger: yea... haha ok peace out
You: peace then,
You: and create it!
Stranger: word
Your conversational partner has disconnected.
wow, it's kinda long, but I think it's worth reading at least. It's very fun.
This is me being myself/goofy. Sometimes i pretend i'm a mean guy, sometimes, i pretend
i'm a ganster, sometimes, i even pretend i'm a girl XD
I personally like it. It's something to do when i'm bored. Well, I guess that's my volume of space i'm willing to take up for today. Enjoy your days guys! I sure did >.<
